No No No

Well I don’t give a fuck, whether you mad or not.
Consider yourself in my position, how low you could go.
People come and go, I don’t wanna know.
It’s not my show, it’s always you and your ego.

Try to take it down low, and you said you didn’t know.
Explained it later on, still you said “hell no”
Offered some apology but you told me “gotta go”
Wouldn’t say yes, I’d say “no no no”.

Silent Lucidity

A lyrics of a song I enjoy very much

Silent Lucidity by Queensryche

“Hush now don’t you cry
Wipe away the teardrop from your eye

You’re lying safe in bed
It was all a bad dream
Spinning in your head

Your mind tricked you to feel the pain
Of someone close to you leaving the game
Of life

So here it is, another chance
Wide awake, you face the day
Your dream is over…

Or has it just begun?

There’s a place I like to hide
A doorway that I run through in the night

Relax child, you were there
But only didn’t realize
And you were scared

It’s a place where you will learn
To face your fears, retrace the years
And ride the whims of your mind

Commanding in another world
Suddenly, you’ll hear and see
This magic new dimension

I
Will be watching over you
I am gonna help you see it through
I
Will protect you in the night
I am smiling next to you
In silent lucidity… “
Spoken:
Visualize your dream (Yes)
Record it in the present tense (Don’t be scared)
Put it into a permanent form
If you persist in your efforts
You can achieve a dream control
(Control)
(How’re you doing today?) (Better?)

Dream come true
Dream come true
Dream come true

Help me…

“If you open your mind for me
You won’t rely on open eyes to see

The walls you built within
Come tumbling down
And a new world will begin

Living twice at once you learn
You’re safe from pain in the dream domain
A soul set free to fly

A round trip journey in your head
Master of illusion, can you realize?
Your dream’s alive, you can be the guide but…”

I
Will be watching over you
I am gonna help you see it through
I
Will protect you in the night
I am smiling next to you…

Bad Breath Red Faced Fled Bed

i miss you so bad,
i feel sad.
i miss you so bad,
i can’t go to bed.

i miss you too bad,
i feel mad.
i miss you too bad,
i’m running out of breath

i want you so bad,
i feel close to death.
i want you so bad,
my face blushing red.

i asked you, too bad.
you replied: yes lad.
i had my eyes on you, laid
you stared back, then fled

i’m want you in bed,
my face blushing red.

now…

i have you in bed,
i’m running out of breath

:p

The Letter part 2

I burnt that letter to you
As i saw you walked with someone new
I turned my back and walked away
Never dreaming of you to come again

Now, a dove standing by my window
With a small paper tied to its feet
Who would it be, i want to know
Sending this bird, and the letter indeed

I start to read:
“Hi, how are you?”
I blink my eyes,
“Good, im fine too!”

She continues:
“I know how you feel…”
Oh Dear Lord,
is this for real?

I stopped reading, ran to the door
There she was, with her suitcase on the floor
“I’m so sorry i left you, i didn’t mean to hurt you.”
I said “that’s okay, i did the same mistakes too.”

She walked in with tears,
then i told her “don’t cry..
no need to fear…
it just does happen in life.”

I wrote this letter to you
I put all my compassion making it
Took days and night to complete
Now I’m giving it to you…

The Letter

I wrote a letter to you
I put all my compassion making it
It took days and nights to complete
How should I give it to you?

I broke a leg for you
I used all my strength
It made me crippled
Yet, were these enough for you?

Now you’ve walked away
Turned your back left me behind
I guess all that wasn’t enough for you
Who am I to give it all to you?

Drowned to every bottom of the glass
Having a shot or two
Trying to escape from reality
I couldn’t stand watching you fade away, with someone new

Where to burn all that letters?
Where to throw away all that sacrifices?
How could you leave me behind?
Am I not good enough for you?

Drowned to every bottom of the glass
Having a shot or two
Trying to escape from reality
Here I sit watching you fade away, with someone new

So I’ve burned all that letters
I’ve thrown away all that sacrifices
So you should leave me behind
As I’m not good enough for you

Walking Into Insanity

i walk myself towards insanity
’cause no one seems to care
’bout myself, my life, and my dignity
so why should i stay

i stepped into the circle of life
yet still i don’t know where to go
but i try to cope with all my might
as the world seems to cruel to lay low

there are many people that i’ve met
there are many places that i’ve been
travel around haven’t met the end yet
would i regret all the things i’ve done

again….

then i walk myself towards insanity
as no one seems to care
about myself, my life, and my dignity
so i should not stay

The Moon and The Night

Malam yang sunyi, dihadiri kumpulan bintang dan keindahan cahaya bulan.

"Siapa bulanku? Siapa malammu? Ku tak tahu apakah cahyamu yang terangi gelapku ataukah gelapku yang temani benderangmu. Ku tak bisa tentukan apakah sabitmu atau purnamamu yang memikatku."

Akan tetapi, satu hal yang pasti kutahu, malam akan tetap hadir meskipun bulan tak bersinar.

"Aku kelam bagai malam, kau menawan ibarat bulan. Tak sempurna malam tanpa bulan, tak bersinar bulan tanpa malam."

That makes ‘us’ a couple, bulanlah yang terangi malam dan malamlah yang temani bulan.

Rejected

Seeking no truth, behind no attributes.
Purity and curiosity came to mind.
Traumatized by suppressed past experience.
Hoping to make a different life by choice.

When everything is said and done,
you’ll put faith to the last.
You may never know,
this will be the thing that crushes your life, your hope,
your spirit, your soul, your everything.

Demands are taken, wishes are made.
Thinking that everything is under control.

Yet you scream for help to guide you out
from the darkness within your world.
The one who abandoned you,
is the one who’ll reject you.