A Thank-You-Hang-Out

It all started when i suddenly felt okay about picking up a phone, actually made one back. Somehow, the missed call my mate did was giving me some chill. I wonder if it had something to do with our photography small project. It turned out that he and some friends decided to drop by at my house. The appointment was made rather around night, so i could wait for my mom coming home.

Like usual, someone did make some mess in my house. We used to do it  somehow, and my mom seemed to be okay with it. I left them with some drinks and snacks before changing my clothes upstairs.  Likewise, my friends played words with each other, making fun of themselves while waiting. I just joined them later.

There was nothing special about the hangout. We just did some chatters, smoke shisha, had card games, pool table laughter, and open-ended sessions. But upon all it was my friends intention to take me out for awhile that really gave me the chill down my spine. I never thought they would’ve come that far just to cheer me up.

Anyway, it always been a pleasure to do anything with you guys even it is something that takes sacrifices. The next time we go out, let it be not because of something blue but rather something shiny and bright!!

Bullet For My Valentine (live in Jakarta)

“I want to share some stories about what happened during the live concert of Bullet For My Valentine in Jakarta on 4th February 2009. This short report will contain my experience attending the concert and some facts during the concert held. For your information, i attended the concert a little late. My brother and me were supposed to meet at 7.oo pm but due to traffic he managed to get there in 8.40 pm. He was the one holding our tickets as he bought it a day before the concert. But we still manage to catch a few songs at the last minute though.”

Moose, Matt, Padge, Jay
left to right: Moose, Matt, Padge, Jay

For a start i would like to shortly introduce the band to you, readers. Bullet For My Valentine is a Wales band consisting of four members of current line-up. They are Matthew Tuck a.k.a Matt on vocal and guitar, Michael Paget a.k.a Padge on guitar, Michael Thomas a.k.a Moose on drums, and Jason James a.k.a Jay on bass. They are influenced commonly by Iron Maiden, Metallica, Megadeth, Machine Head, and Slayer. They sound like those New Waves of British Heavy Metal, put it simply, they play metal. Currently the band have released one album, a mini album, and a few live records also singles CD.

As you may all know, Bullet For My Valentine was scheduled to have Asian concert and the visit would be in Jakarta, Indonesia. The concert was dated on 4th February 2009 and scheduled to start at 8.00 pm local time. There was no official opening-act for the band, inspite there were some local band playing just outside the venue an hour before the concert started.

I do not know for sure what they were playing for the opening as i were late. But as i was waiting for my brother to come, i walked around the venue and managed to catch a song or two. Basically they were playing almost all of the songs in “Scream Aim Fire” album.

The security guard were tight. No one allowed to approach the venue without having a ticket, even if one was about to walk around it to get to some other places. There were some restricted area where people were not supposed to walk by, except one is a crew. Around the front gate there were some people selling ticket half-priced, due to the concert that had been running for around 30 minutes (it was 8.35 pm when i walked to the front gate). There were also a bunch of t-shirts stands, all of them having “Bullet For My Valentine” logos on the chest side.

Finally my brother and i managed to enter the venue as he arrived. There were a small stage at the outside (oh yes, the concert was held in tennis court indoor with full air con). This was the stage used for the local band to perform just before the BFMV (Bullet For My Valentine) started playing. I dont know what band that performed, as i arrived late, sorry for the bad news.

I was walking in the scene when one of the security guards told me that the concert is over, yet i might try to enter if i liked. So we (my brother and i) kept walking and finally entered the venue when we heard the audience screaming for more songs. I predicted that they have not played some songs and saved it later for encore. My guess was right, the whole band back to the stage and started playing “Waking The Demon”. The concert ended when they played their last song “Forever and Always”. Matt and Jay managed to hold the song for having the audience clapping their hands in the air, Moose and Padge still playing their part to keep the rhythm flow.

In overall, it was a good concert. I see some enthusiasm of the audiences who were singing along with the band, especially those who stands in front of the stage. But i must regretfully say that the sound quality was awful. You can not even distuingish the differences between both guitar player, even bass sound didnt come out well. There were some excepetions of course when Padge played some lead, and Moose’s drum hitting. The rest is just awful, though you guys had managed to perform well in my opinion (sorry for Matt, Padge, Jay, and Moose…the play was great but sound produced just could not match your virtuosity).

Anyway, i would be waiting for the next visit of BFMV. Your fans would be very pleased knowing that you had your heart for Indonesia as a place to perform. Keep rocking guys!!


The Word “Sorry”

Sorry, it is a word that sounds familiar for everyone of us. It is commonly said when someone is making a mistake or heard a bad news. For example, when i am walking down the street and accidentally bump into somebody then i would say “sorry”. Another thing, when you are having some conversation with your friend. Talking about things happened around you, starting or left some topics, when suddenly your friend states something terrible something bad happened on his/ her relatives or maybe himself/herself, then you might want to say sorry.

When the word “sorry” went out, do you really intend saying it? Or rather it is just for a relieve of your bad feelings? In my opinion, saying sorry is not that simple. When somebody had said it, not just the state of mind that decided to have the word uttered, but also followed by the behavior of the person. In other words, you really mean it and regret deeply. For example, you had damaged your parent’s car, accidentally hit a neighbour’s house fence and it simply happened because of your clumsy driving while texting your friend through a mobile phone. You went home, explain the incident happened to your parents, and thus you might need to say “i am sorry”. But is it really end that way only?

No! As i have stated “sorry” is not just about the utterance of the word itself. It is something that should be followed up by your behavior changed of the similar cases later on. You might not having yourself better if you do not really regret what you have done, knowing the consequences. Because, later on you could be doing the same mistakes over and over again. In this case, you might simply say sorry just to show you regret towards your parents, and then at another day someone might find you driving while texting again.

What you really need to keep in mind is do you really mean it. Some people might get their feelings hurt if they know that you are saying sorry just to ease them. Again, some people may think that saying sorry is not enough. You need to do something as for the “damage”. For this reason, civil court tend to be chosen as the best way to settle something that cannot be “fixed” by simply saying “sorry”. There would be punishment and fines, which i would say, to really make the person accused regret about what he/ she did and not having it again on another circumstances.

Anyway, the word sorry is surely something nobble in my opinion, making an apologize is better than accepting one. So the next time you did something awful, be sure to really regret it and promise yourself not doing it anymore before saying that you are sorry.


It’s been a month to count i am not sleeping in a normal fashion. I always stay up late until 5 am everyday. Without being able to close my eyes even though i have tried. The result was quite awful: i wake up around 2 pm each day.

Yesterday was better, after having some activities outdoor and trapped under heavy traffic, i managed to get some good normal sleep and wake up early in the morning. But i fell asleep around 8 pm for 3 hours, so i had my sleeping rythm back to my “normal” again, which is stay up late.

I wonder if there is anything to do with this problem. If i continue this state, at a slow rate i will damaged my own physical health. It never feels good to stay up late and woke up even later. Actually, it is awful to have this habbit. I wanted to try something, exercise comes to mind first. Notice that going online, reading, and writing around midnight each day not helping me getting these eye lids closed.

So, it is about 5 am now. It would be better if i log off and try to get some good sleep. Farewell then.

Mass Gathering

Unethical ways of holding a public show?

It is 8 am in the morning now.  Yes, Sunday has come. It  was so early, i can only remembered that last night i was hanging out with my friends after a few songs i played back in graduation party for this semester. Yep, that is right, i am a university boy. I had those songs played dedicated for my friends that have just been graduated as a bachelor, congratulations fellas! I am going to get through the same path with you soon, yeah for sure!

Now now, let us move to another part of last night story. I had some interesting driving-home experience. Just for your info, it usually took around 30 minutes by private car to drive from home to university. I had count the traffic also, having that amount of time to travel is sufficient to get you to an appointment on time.

Last night, i was having a 2.5 hours of driving just the same route. Can you imagine? No, of course you can not. For some reasons, the only thing that will make your traveling duration a little bit longer was some common causes for example, during the home-coming hours (this is when some schools or college along the route had the same time off, so most people are driving using the same route to get to their way home). For this reason, you may have to added around 20 more minutes of the traveling time.

Now i want to explain what exactly happened. Earlier that night, one of the graduation committee asked for my friend help. Apparently one of the performers for last night show was on held. She was a member of Otak Encer (this was local band in my town). She informed that the usual route to the university was blocked, there was some kind of public gathering. So she asked for another route to go for. As a kind person, my friend was giving the direction also some cues to be watched.

When the clock showed that it was 10 pm, i decided to go back home along with one of my friends. She had not brought her car, knowing that our houses were in the same district, i decided to drop her off. My friend that was helping the committee with the alternative routes warned me of possible traffic jam. He said that the mass gathering might be held in some kind of fashion that would influence all the traffic around that area. I replied to him that around this time, it might have been over plus it was raining that night.

So i took all my gears, picked up my friend where she was hangout with some of the audiences, drove around the parking lot, and moving out from the university territorial. I noticed there was some strange things, for the first time i remembered i looked at the exit gate for one route was chainned. Alright, this was quite strange as it used to be the one of the exit routes around this time. My friend (that i was about to drop her off) said that this happened due to the university graduation ceremony, some exits usually got closed to manage the traffic inside the university territorial (yeah, it has some kind of street wide enough for a bus to travel around those various faculty buildings). The street i travelled after i left university was quite clear. So i said to myself that the road-block might have been opened. Of course, just 2 hours to midnight, what is the reason of keeping it.

After some kilometer of traveling, i met the unwanted condition. The drama that took all my energies just for driving home. We were driving slowly, so slow that it took an hour for just 5 kilometers of it. Bored, that is what we felt that night. Could you imagine the static traffic ahead of you. None of the cars moving, all seem like parking in a lot. Not to mention the four lanes of congestion using the actually three lanes. Sometimes she had to warned my about my car mirrors, afraid that it would hit other car’s.

So after an hour, of course both of our parents got worried. I got called and texted once, while she had several times. Yep, it was 11 pm and none of us had gottten home yet. Then i saw this flag banner along the road. Before, i was guessing that this traffic jam might been happened due to the mass gathering held by some fanatics. Couple of times i was trying to make sure of me, it was impossible. Yes it  was possible when i saw a man or two acting like a parking crew. Oh, i got to tell that the street i had taken had branched. It goes into two ways, but eventually ending the same road again. The right branch was closed. So all those four lines of cars congestion forced to ‘accidentally’ having the left branch street.

Along this street, i saw some fanatics walking along the street. I had it mind that the gathering was over. All the cars move bit by bit, inches by inches, so long that it took another 30 minutes, the course was short though. Eventually i drove at the side of the gathering site. It was a large lot usually functioned as a driving exercise range. The maddest thing about these people having this gathering, was their behavior. Along the site and the street, they were moving out and going home, ignoring other cars that had been in the waiting games wandering in mind of what happened that night, and selfishly using some men to stand and held the cars just to let their cars coming out from the area.

I found it very annoying. I may understand if this was done at the start, because as a holder the committee may have to make sure that the only performer they have has to come on time and without trivial traffic situation. In comparison, i want to take a music concert as an example. A couple of concerts i had attended,  none of them applied specialty or personal righteousness of going in and out the area for the audience. Artist and musician that had to perform were the only people to have it. In order to make sure they come safely and in the right manner of doing the show. Similar to these cases, i think that all of them fanatics should not be feeling righteous of having their own way while leaving the scene.

We the people trapped in traffic on your behalf are humans of the same right of using the road. You all fanatics are just an audience in my perspective. So none of you having that right to go wandering around the street as you want it. Think about other people too! I feel bad for them as this is not the only time i had seen them this way. Some friends back in past times also shared the same stories, that these kind fanatics always manage to cause a large amount of traffic jam.

So to me, this was another unethical ways of holding a public gathering. They could have been held in a building, or a better lot where lots of people can be gathered round in a nice way, and not having the ‘other’ people not involved have to deal with sudden long-hours of traffic jam.